There is a certain amount of peace that comes from going to church. I love to learn about a God who loves me and a savior that loves me so much that he would give his life for me. I love to learn ways that I and my family can be happier.
But sometimes those things make it HARD to go to church, too!
Soon before my divorce process started, things at home were rough. To say the least. It was traumatic, it was sad. During that time it was hard to go to church because I felt like all I did at church was try not to cry. I'd hear a song that reminds me that Heavenly Father will support me during my trials... and I'd cry. I'd hear a lesson on marriage... and I'd cry. I'd feel the peace that comes with going to church ... I'd cry. I'd feel the peace of praying... I'd cry.
You get the point. Generally it wasn't full out crying, but trying NOT to.
I basically went to church and continuously tried not to cry.
But I went anyway. Because I knew that feeling that peace and crying because I felt loved was better than not going and not feeling the peace of going to church and still crying anyway. I still needed the truth I learned at church, I still needed that help.
And eventually it got easier. And then easier turned into easy. Going helped to boost me up.
Of course I still run into things that remind me of heartache. And that is hard. But then I turn to God again and he helps me through it.
I think that is why some people have a hard time praying or attending church, even when they know it is true. Because, especially with praying, you put your self out there and feel vulnerable. This can sometimes seem scary when you are just trying to hold it all together.
But remember that church, prayer, reflection, taking a deep breath, resting, its all there to help you and sort things out.
Use these tools to help you get through your trials and find some peace. Do it now so that you save yourself some pain and heartache later.
If you could do something to help ease your pain, wouldn't you?